Life, Strife and all that.

Sometimes things suck, sometimes things really suck and sometimes somethings that are suppose to suck or really suck aren't that bad. It's hard to explain but if you understand what I mean then you know what it's like... for example today I broke up with my girlfriend, quite literally like an hour ago. It sucks but it's really not that bad... or it's not as bad as I thought it would be. I mean yes I do miss her but at the same time since we never really saw each other in the first place it's not really too bad? I guess. I'd be lying if I said I didn't see it coming, she was distancing herself the past few weeks so I knew it was coming. I'm just wondering what to do now, she was the person I saw movies with so I need to find another movie partner and eventually another girlfriend. Hmm, I need to start asking around. I still haven't seen the Avengers and I was suppose to go see that with her but since that's not going to happen... I might just download it. Which sucks cause I wanted to see it in theaters, oh well.

Anyways I haven't posted anything in a while and this entry is going to be short but I plan to start writing more when I have free time.

Time, pants and what not

Well it's been a while since I've written anything anywhere, so I thought that maybe updating my newest thing first would be for the best. The only reason I'm actually updating this is cause I've found myself with nothing to do for some strange reason and now I'm trying to find something to do with my time. As far as I'm concerned I've done everything I have available for me to do, at least for today. Being unemployed still doesn't help with my boredom, normally the things I'm doing would have to wait till after work but since I don't have a job I finish everything really early and have nothing else to do for the rest of my day. I'm getting tired of some of the video games I've been playing, like Star Wars the Old Republic. It's a good game but you can only play it so much before you get bored of it. I've thought of playing WoW again but I don't know if I could get back into that game, specially since most of my friends don't really play anymore. I've gotten back into Diablo 2 a bit and I'm really excited for diablo 3 to come out but that's not till May. The one thing I've found that I really enjoyed was Skyrim. I'd still be playing Skyrim but I had a downloaded copy and one of the files were corrupt pretty early on so I couldn't complete the main story quest without the game completely crashing. I'm thinking of actually buying it, which is what I would normally do, but since I'm out of work I'd rather not add to my bills with something that I don't actually need.

One thing that I've actually been thinking of doing with all my free time is creating a youtube page and uploading videos and things that I'll make. It probably won't be anything special and it'd probably be more of a video blog than anything else but it would be fun I think. The name I will have for that page will be "just add pants". It's kind of an inside joke among my friends and I but I also think it's kind of catchy. I have another friend who's really getting into his youtube page, he posted a video not to long ago and he's thinking of making other videos. He wants to be a rapper I think and he's not bad. I just think he gets lazy and doesn't get around to doing the things he wants to do. I can't really say much about that cause I'm the same way I tend to get lazy and put things off for the longest time.

Anyways I think I'm going to end this post here, thinking of finding something to do has given me a gnarly headache so I think I'll lay down for a bit and take a nap. Oh, and if you want to check out my friends video here it is. http://www.youtube.com/user/HarrisALLmighty It's the only video on his youtube page, it'd be nice if you watch it and comment and like it or something.

Road to recovery

Well I threw my back out a few days ago so I haven't really been able to do much unless I was laying on my back. It's kind of funny I think, being so young and yet having so many body troubles. I don't mind being in pain sometimes, it's kind of a reminder of the things I've done in my life. My knees are a from football and other sports during high school and from my accident in Toronto. My back is kind of a mystery to me though, it could be a mixture of a few hits I've taken through different sports and different injuries but for the most part I can't really pin it on a single major event. I just think that my back has been weakened through a bunch of different things who knows though. Oh well, I'll survive haha.

What else have I been up to... nothing really I suppose. Still looking for a job but I'm patient, still hoping I get one before the middle of next month. I still have bills to pay. I think my problem is that I need to rework my resume and cover letter... though it's not bad I think. I've sent out a bunch of resumes I'm just not having any luck, which sucks. I'm not so worried about not getting a job... but not having anything to do is going to drive me crazy. One can only play so many video games, paint so many warhammer figures and watch so many tv shows and movies before you want to pull your hair out. I find myself sleeping a lot these days cause I have nothing to do which I know in itself isn't healthy. I just don't have the drive to do anything... or the means to do anything really.

Anyways I'm going to cut this one short, my backs starting to bother me again and it is kind of early... I should get some sleep sometime... I guess. Take care everyone.

Movies Video Games and Such.

Lately I've been watching a ton of movies, I don't really know why either. Sometimes I'll just got on a huge movie watching binge and watch 8+ movies in a day while gaming or doing something else. It's funny though cause I don't even remember the last few movies I've watched. I have a pretty bad short term memory, sometimes a bad long term memory. It actually makes me worry sometimes, haha. Anyways I'm just looking through netflix canada right now and really wish they had a better selection of movies to choose from. I mean it's gotten better from what it used to be but it's still pretty lack luster, I really hope they change that. I miss video rental stores, if there was a new movie out I'd be able to go and rent it right away instead of having to wait a few months for netflix to get it. I also miss being able to rent games, granted I didn't do it often but I like the option of being able to preview a game before actually buying it so I don't waste my money on a potential piece of crap. That being said I like the PSN and Xbox online cause I can preview games before buying them, but not all games come with demo versions which can be a pain. I'm also not the type of person to trade in games, I don't know why. I've only ever traded in one game in my entire life cause it was a complete piece of crap, haha... though I've also bought more then a few bad games in my life that turned out to not be that good and still have them... I keep them to remind me of my mistakes kind of like badges of shame. That being said I also have a lot of good games, many of which I haven't beaten or actually played. It's kind of funny actually, I lent my friend a game a while back that wasn't even out of it's packaging, it still had the shrink wrap on it and everything. That was probably a year ago or so and I still haven't played it. I should probably get around to playing more of them, but online gaming has taken me away from console games these days.

Games like Swtor and WoW have ruined console games for me cause I find most my time being spent on those these days, well most of my free time at least. I can't really bad mouth mmo's though just cause I've made a lot of friends on them, some of which I've known for close to 7 years now. I really like the online community that mmo's create. Well that's once you sift though all the trolls and grieffers. But mostly from my experiences gamers are relatively easy going good people, I think so at least. It's the trolls out there that give us bad names. For those of you that don't know what a troll is read the link and you'll understand. I find it kind of sad that a lot of people have nothing better to do then try to bring grief on someone, or a group of people. I personally just ignore them and stick to my close group of online friends but I'd like to meet new ones if possible sometimes. Though I hate to admit it an intelligent troll can be fun to watch, though that hardly ever happens. One unfortunate side effect I find from playing mmo's is how much they take away from you're FPS gaming skill haha. I first noticed this when I played WoW, servers went down one night and we all decided to hop onto counter-strike until server came back up. We all claimed to be good at CS once upon a time, and I'd like to think I was at one point. But when we played that night it was terrible, I don't think I killed a single person when we joined some random server. It was so bad we had to host our own private server for us to actually stand a change against anyone haha. I've been having the same problem lately with MW2 and MW3 I wasn't terrible at those games, I was usually positive in my KDR but lately it's just not even fun to play haha.

Anyways I think I'm going to end this here, I think I'm going to watch "Star Trek: First Contact" and maybe something else before bed. I also don't care what people say, it was a good movie. A movie anyone could watch without even knowing about Star Trek. But that's another discussion for another time. Good night everyone!

Getting into shape!

Getting into shape is probably one of the hardest things that anyone will ever try to do, I know it's been really hard for me. I think it's the third or fourth time that I'm trying to get back into shape and I seriously hope this time it actually works haha. Everyone I think has their reasons for wanting to get in shape and I think personally for most people it's cause they want to look good. I admit, yes I want to look good but more so I want to feel good and just be healthy again. A few years ago I had pretty major knee surgery to repair the cartilage in my knee and during that time I couldn't really do much in the way of exercise. To add to my bad luck right as I was cleared to start doing some moderate exercise I was hit by a Lincoln Navigator while visiting a friend of mine on the other side of the country. I wasn't hurt too bad but I was off my feet for a while and after that I had to take it easy for a while longer. So for me the biggest reason I want to get back into shape is cause I want to be in the same shape I was before and I want to be as health as I was before. I remember the days when I could play sports with my friends and no be so out of breath, these days I run up the stairs in my house and I'm ready to pass out. It's kind of funny actually but at the same time kind of scary.

As far as getting out of shape goes I think I only really have myself to blame on that matter for not watching what I eat and not being careful in general. As far as not being careful with what I eat goes I think diet is the biggest part of losing weight. I think you could lose a lot of weight from just eating the right food and in the right proportions, though obviously it wouldn't be as fast as if you were to exercise regularly too. I'm currently trying to stay away from processed foods, fast foods and soft drinks. You'll be surprised how much cutting out, or at the very least, limiting your soft drink in take can change your overall health. I didn't believe it at first but after almost completely cutting out soft drinks from my diet I find that I am sleeping better which in turn makes me feel better over all.

Anyways I'm going to end this entry here since I can't really think of much else to write at the moment. Hopefully my goal of losing weight and getting back into shape sticks with me, that being said I'm going work out now. Take care everyone.

*edit* If anyone has any advice one getting into shape and weight loss your input is very welcome ^_^

February 2nd 2012

So today's been a relatively slow day and kind of a short day for me but that might have to do with the fact that I woke up at 4 in the evening. That being said I didn't really get to bed till about 10 in the morning which is unusual for me. I haven't been able to sleep well lately, I think it's cause I need a new bed. I've had the same mattress for longer then I can remember haha. It's a comfortable bed I think it's just getting a bit worn out. Sometimes I wake up with my back in all kinds of pain so I've been looking into getting something new for a while just never actually went out and got a new bed. I was thinking about either getting a new water bed, I've heard those are really good for some people or one of those memory foam space material beds. I've tried a memory foam bed in the past before when I was shopping around they seemed really comfortable but really expensive too. I was also looking at a pillow top mattress, they have always been comfortable also every time I've tried one, but I hear the pillow top gets worn out really quick so I don't want to have to buy a new mattress every few years, I'd like something that can last a bit longer then that.

Talking about buying a new bed also makes me want to buy a new computer chair, I like the one I have now it's just that the padding is getting kind of worn out and it creaks really loudly sometimes. I'd like to buy one of those really expensive massage chairs and I was actually looking at one a while back that would work but the fact that I don't have a source of income at the moment really makes it hard to replace my chair with another simply chair never mind a really expensive one. I need to do a bit more research into chairs also, since I spend a lot of time at the computer I'd like something that doesn't wear out in six months like the last few chairs I had. I'll have to shop around or ask some friends for advice on that one.

Speaking of not having a source of income it's been really hard to even get a call back these days, though I understand that the job market isn't the best these days for people who are looking. It just really hampers my plans for a career and everything. I'm currently attending flight school and I can't pay for hours to fly without a job so I've been putting that off. Luckily at least my bills are really small and I've been managing so far but I think I only have enough juice left in me for another month or so and if I don't get a job by then I think I'll be asking my parents for a loan haha which I'd rather not do. Oh well I'm sure something will come up for me eventually, I'm not looking for anything permanent just something that'll pay the bills as I go through school or try to go through school.

Anyways I think I'll cut it off here for my first daily life blog entry. Kind of boring but hey I'm a below average dude so don't expect me to be exciting or interesting in any way. Thanks for reading.